The downpour

I have experienced God pour out his love and wisdom like a flood.  It has rushed over me. Consuming every ounce of my being.  Standing in the downpour, I can see him clearly.  I can see his hand of protection, his provision.  His arms of love and grace.  I am empowered. confident. alive.

Then comes the drought.  Alone in the desert where all I see is a mirage of what I hope to be reality. These are the times when the voice of God is silent.  The moments when I am left feeling abandoned.  Deprived of the strength I once found in his loving arms.  I am caught up in a whirlwind of frustration. It's quiet. dark. lonely.  

God has allowed this season in my life.  I may not see the results right away, but he is strengthening my spirit.  And as long as I keep my focus on the Truth, standing firm in the purpose of the gospel, remembering that I am alive in Christ and that he lives in me, this season will not dry up my bones.

Draw near to God 

and he will draw near to you.

James 4:8

No matter how far away the Lord seems, I will draw near to him.  Not because of the joys and fulfillment that I may get from it, but because I know it pleases him to see me earnestly seek his face.  To desire God more than control. 

I want more of him. To be able to stand in the downpour once again.

He will come to us like the rain. 

Hosea 6:3